?

Log in

this is me

Wednesday, November 29, 2006

3:46AM - amazingly amazing song

I wish I'd see a field below
I wish I'd hear a rooster crow
But there are none who live downtown
And so the day starts out so slow
Again the sun was never called
And darkness spreads over the snow
Like ancient bruises
I'm awake and feel the ache
But I wish I'd see a field below
I wish I'd see a field below

I wish I'd see your face below
I wish I'd hear you whispering low
But you don't live downtown no more
And everything must come and go

Again the sun was never called
And darkness spreads over the snow
Like ancient bruises
I'm awake and feel the ache
I'm awake and feel the ache
But I wish I'd see a field below
But I wish I'd see a field below
I'm awake and feel the ache
But I wish I'd see a field below
I'm awake and feel the ache
But I wish I'd see a field below
I wish I'd see a field below
I wish I'd see a field below

--Regina Spektor--

Current mood: disturbed...

Friday, November 17, 2006

12:40PM

phone got cut.
woo.
call the house.
leave a message.
not after 10.
yeah.
i dont want to work today.
it's too early.

Current mood: exhausted

Saturday, July 29, 2006

11:21PM - how are these things so accurate?!

<td align="center"> Andrew --
[noun]:

A person with a taste for acorns

'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com</td>

Saturday, June 24, 2006

11:53AM

i've been feeling better. i learned that i walk in and use the studio whenever it's available. so i may be needing some models for some spur of the moment shoots.


i think i'm going to run tonight. until i can't run any more. then hot tub. yes. hot tub.

Thursday, June 22, 2006

1:52AM - i bleed green, and sweat sap.

I'm on my way to being in the best shape of my life, if I'm not there already. I'm the most physically active as I've ever been.
But my mind. My creativity is not being worked as it should be. I feel my mind is being squandered.
I don't have access to the photo lab this semester, and it is killing me. All I have is a digital photography class.
Anyone who knows me, knows I do not work digitally. I do not find it fun or gratifying.
I need inspiration and the means to fulfill it. I need a change of pace. Or place. Or face.
I literally feel like I'm going insane. I find myself staring at the image of Julie's face and the deer on the wall,
instead of the movie on the tv below it. I'm dying to create another piece like that. (To anyone who hasn't seen it.
Come over.) Right now, I'm lucid. But my mind is occupied by recording this collection of thoughts.

What follows below is the typical cryptic journal post that has been building up in my head for months and weeks and days. I do not feel the need to explain any of the following. So any questions asked may be in vain.


Often. Perhaps, far too often, my mind has been occupied by orchids, ireland, and the moon.
The orchid is elusive. It has many faces which makes it hard to discover how it likes to be handled. What environment it prefers. What nutrients it needs. It takes specific care, yet it's roots reach out to grasp the unknown. These are observations I have made. It is beautiful.
Ireland is far away. I have glimpsed it. It intrigues and excites me. i want to go there someday soon. But I have the feeling I won't. It's spirit runs through me, though I have less connection to it than I like to think. It is also beautiful.
The moon is closer than it looks. It is apparent, yet mysterious. It shines on me and so many others. It, like the others, is beautiful.

The orchid is something I like to shoot, and someday, I may nurture one. But not now. Perhaps, never.
Ireland is somewhere I'd like to visit, but I'm not ready to move there. Not yet, anyhow. And maybe never.
The moon provides an amazing view of the world. I like to see it, but I can not watch it every night. I may never be ready to see time pass that way.

Wow. Without realizing it, I've created more than I intended to. My thoughts are sometimes foreign to even me. They must come from deep within my subconscious. A place that I do not even visit in my dreams.



Methinks I need a vacation.
Which I will be taking in August.
A very much needed trip to PA.
To visit My Family, The Forest, and The Past.
To look forward to and contemplate The Future.
Most importantly, to get away from restrictions and enter a place that fuels my creativity and passion.

Current mood: contemplative

Monday, June 5, 2006

9:56PM - just the day, i guess. or the week. hopefully not the month.

what the fuck.
i don't know what's wrong with me.
i need a change.
i need to meet people.
i need to go places.
i need to fucking clean this apartment so it feels like it can be lived in again.

i need a release.

Current mood: not real happy

Tuesday, May 30, 2006

4:38AM - i'm going to try to do this..

..mind you, i am extremely tired.

friday. worked til 5. hit the gym. then tim and i saw fight club at the main art at midnight. it was sweet.

saturday. this is where it gets kinda hairy. i was late for work because my alarm sucks. (i bought a new one, btw.) so it was a 930 to 4 kinda day. then tim and i got to hart plaza around 730-8ish? i dont really remember. all my days are running together more than usual. met up with Boo, greg, and kitty. sunday. we stayed until about 12ish and went in search of the after party Richie Hawtin was spinning at. we walked a mile and a half or so up woodward. then back down woodward cuz it was sold out. we returned home around 4? cleaned up, then went to denny's for breakfast. i went to sleep at 6 and got up at 645 so that i could be at work at 730 this time. and i made it too! after work, i showered then went back to DEMF. met up with the shizz (back from japan, woo!) and cj but that was at like, 1015ish so it didnt really count. we stayed til 1130ish(?) this night and went to a 6 story rave with dj lineups on ever floor but the ground. monday. saw adam X spin which was nothing short of a-fucking-mazing. i danced like a guy-who-likes-techo for the first time in my life and i'd say i wasnt too bad. we were there until about 315 and i was in bed by 430. only to get up at 730 in order to be at work at 850. and i made that one too, thanks partly due to my new backup alarm clock. so i worked until 5 but didnt leave until 510 because i lost my keys. the cute girl at work offered me a ride somewhere (she's very nice, as well) but i said i'd need a ride to detroit but thank you. my keys ended up at the registers outside (shrug.) home, shower, left for DEMF, once and for all for this year. a shame, really. ran into Boo and greg again but not kitty. she was off in la la land, apparently. cj and i danced it up to Richie, then her, tim, and i headed over to blue and listened to some sweet...wait...get this...techno. there were girls dancing in a cage. it was sexy. at about threeish, we left. and here i am. i dont really know how i got home. i drove. but my memory is blotchy.

all in all, it was a superb holiday weekend.

Current mood: exhausted

Tuesday, May 16, 2006

1:46AM - wtf?!

it's quarter to two a.m., and tim's making MARSHMALLOW MONSTER MASH!

Current mood: laughing

Friday, May 5, 2006

7:47PM - I'VE BEEN HIT...er...TAGGED!!!

RULES: Each player of this game starts with the "6 weird things/habits about yourself" and people who get tagged need to write a blog of their 6 weird habits/things as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. Let the game begin.



1. i like to take showers in the dark. in the complete dark. it's very relaxing. also, it reminds me of the color darkroom where there aren't even safe lights. it's very calming for me.

2. i forget a lot. i forget where i'm going. i forget what i'm doing. i forget my keys, my wallet... it gets very frustrating at times.

3. when i open IBC cream soda bottles, i have to smell the mist that comes up. i've just recently (within the last week) started breathing in the mist after opening the root beer and black cherry bottles, as well. mind you, i only do this with IBC products. you should try it; it's great!

4. i feel like an asshole if i don't use a turn signal...period.

5. i collect deer bones. i've come across two carcasses (one of them i found. the other was showed to me.) i remembered where they were, and when the bones were clean enough, i picked through and took what i liked. i have two plastic bags of bones in my bottom drawer. i have no idea what i'm going to do with them. right now, i only do this with deer bones.

6. 5 days a week, i give advice to strangers on how to do things i've never actually done. does that make me some kind of hypocrite?



i tag Becky, Tim, Maj, Dustin, Sarah, and Joe Gunnels.

Saturday, April 29, 2006

11:49AM - what the fuck...

http://www.immigrantsolidarity.org/

immigration built this country and continues to fuel it. but illegal immigration is against the law. go ahead. pull your kids out of school for the day. don't go to work for the day. instead, walk, or boat, or drive yourself out of this country..or...OR...apply for citizenship. what did the irish do when they came streamin off the boats? they fought our war. what do you do? demand free shit. fuck that.

it's all about respect.

Thursday, April 27, 2006

4:55PM - andy haiku...

eff this ess.
im sick, and i dont like it.
i havent been this sick for this long in a long while.
nooooooooooooooooooooo good.
germ warfare.

Current mood: tired...sick...good.

Sunday, April 23, 2006

9:08AM

last night, i had a blast.
thanks to all who were present.
all two of you.
and i wont tell.
promise.

Current mood: happy

Saturday, April 22, 2006

2:51AM

my haircut rocks.
now girls want to make out with me.
hahaha
nah.



time for bed.

Current mood: tired

Sunday, April 16, 2006

3:27AM - most certainly.

fuckin' smitten.

Current mood: thoughtful

Tuesday, March 7, 2006

11:34AM

i havent posted in a long long time. so i thought id bore you with a survey. maybe ill post whats actually going on in my life later.


1.WOULD YOU GET BACK WITH YOUR EX IF YOU COULD?
I'm fairly happy where i am now

2. WHAT KIND OF SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?
black tee from the gap

3. HAVE YOU MADE OUT WITH ANYONE ON YOUR FRIEND'S LIST?
just one

4. DO YOU HAVE "A THING" FOR ANYONE ON YOUR LIST?
she's not on my list

5. HOW MANY PEOPLE ON YOUR LIST DO YOU KNOW IN REAL LIFE?
most

6. DO YOU HOLD GRUDGES?
not outwardly

7. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT TO HAVE? I'm not thinking about that now

8. DO YOU HAVE A GOOD RELATIONSHIP WITH BOTH YOUR PARENTS? yessah


9. DO YOU MAKE OVER 40K A YEAR? uhhhh...nope

10. Name one song you can relate to right now? Bloc Party - Price of Gas


11. WHAT NAME WOULD YOU WANT TO HAVE BESIDES THE ONE YOU HAVE? Rory

12. WOULD YOU EVER MAKE OUT WITH SOMEONE OF THE SAME SEX? Johnny Depp? otherwise, no



13. WHAT IS YOUR MOTHER'S NAME? Elaine

14. What did you do for your last bday? i dont remember

15. WHAT'S YOUR MAIN RINGTONE ON YOUR PHONE? Spheres (an AT&T exclusive)

16. WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP? 9:38 am

17. WHAT WERE YOU DOING AT MIDNIGHT TWO NIGHTS AGO? probably watching tv with Kristin


18. HOW MANY EX'S ARE ON YOUR FRIENDS LIST? just one

19. DO YOU LIKE HAVING YOUR HAIR PULLED? meh

20. FAVORITE CITY? Boston. i want to go back


21. FAVORITE COLOR? green


22. NAME SOMETHING YOU CAN'T WAIT TO DO? See the Warriors tomorrow night. after that...sell some photographs

24. DO YOU GET ALONG WITH YOUR SIBLINGS? yes


25. WHAT IS ONE THING YOU WISH YOU COULD CHANGE ABOUT YOURSELF? i want to be more outgoing.


26. IF YOU HAD $250,000...HOW WOULD YOU SPEND IT? buy studio equiptment


30. LAST THING YOU ATE? sunflower seeds


31. YOUR FAVORITE MONTH? october

32. LEAST FAVORITE MONTH? January

34. WHO IS GETTING ON YOUR NERVES RIGHT NOW? no one


37. Last person that made you sad? ...

38. WOULD YOU TAKE A BULLET FOR YOUR BEST FRIEND? thats a tough question that can not be answered in a survey. only in the real life situation

39. FAVORITE DRINK? monster? carmel white mocha fraps? maybe peppermint hot chocolate from starbucks.

Wednesday, February 15, 2006

8:17PM - this is horrible

i've said it once and i'll say it again: we're in trouble

http://www.ebaumsworld.com/2006/02/invade.html

Current mood: scared

Tuesday, January 17, 2006

4:20PM - if see 70 means you have no life...what does seeing 86 mean?

(1) Rocky Horror Picture Show
( ) Grease
(2) Pirates of the Caribbean
(3) Boondock Saints
(4) The Mexican
(5) Fight Club
(6) Starsky and Hutch
(7) Neverending Story
( ) Blazing Saddles
(8) Airplane
(9) The Princess Bride
( ) Young Frankenstien
( ) AnchorMan: The Legend of Ron Burgandy
(10) Napoleon Dynamite
( ) Saw
( ) White Noise
( ) White Oleander
(11) Anger Management
(12) 50 First Dates
(13!) Jason X
(14) Scream
(15) Scream 2
(16) Scream 3
(17) Scary Movie
(18) Scary Movie 2
(19) Scary Movie 3
(20) American Pie
(21) American Pie 2
( ) American Wedding
( ) Harry Potter
( ) Harry Potter 2
(22) Harry Potter 3
( ) Harry Potter 4
(23) Resident Evil I
( ) Resident Evil 2
(24) The Wedding Singer
( ) Little Black Book
(25) The Village
(26) Donnie Darko
(27) Lilo & Stitch
(28) Finding Nemo
(29) Finding Neverland
( ) Ghosts
(30) Signs
(31) The Grinch
(32) Texas Chainsaw Massacre
( ) White Chicks
( )Butterfly Effect
(33)Thirteen Going on 30
( )I Robot
(34) Dodgeball: A True Underdog Story
( ) Universal Soldier
(35) A Series Of Unfortunate Events
( ) Along came polly
( ) Deep Impact
(36)Kingpin
( )Never Been Kissed
(37) Meet The Parents
( ) Meet the Fockers
( )Eight Crazy Nights
(38)A Cinderella Story
( ) the Terminal
( ) the Lizzie McGuire Movie
( ) Passport to Paris
(39) Dumb & Dumber
( ) Dumb & Dumberer
( ) Final Destination
( ) Final Destination 2
( ) Halloween H2O
(40) The Ring
( ) The Ring 2
( ) Harold & Kumar Go To White Castle
(41) Practical magic
(42) Chicago
( ) Ghost Ship
(43) From Hell
( ) hellboy
(44) Secret Window
(45) I am sam
( ) The Whole Nine Yards
( ) The Day After Tomorrow
(46) Child's Play
(47) Bride of Chucky
(48) Ten Things I Hate About You
( ) Just Married
(49) Eternal Sunshine Of the Spotless Mind
( ) Nightmare on Elm Street
(50) Sixteen Candles
( ) Coach Carter
( ) Bad Boys
( ) Bad Boys 2
( ) Joy Ride
( ) Se7en
(51) Oceans eleven
( ) Ocean's Twelve
( ) Identity
( ) Lone Star
( ) Bedazzled
(52) Predator I
(53) Predator II
(54) Independence Day
(55) Cujo
( ) A Bronx Tale
( ) Darkness Falls
( ) Christine
(56) ET
(57) Children of the Corn
( ) My Boss' Daughter
( ) maid in manhatten
( ) Frailty
( ) Best Bet
( ) How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
( ) She's All That
( ) Calendar Girls
( ) Sideways
( ) Mars Attacks
( ) Event Horizon
(58) Ever After
(59) Forrest Gump
( ) Big Trouble in Little China
(60) X-Men
(61) X-2
(62) Jeepers Creepers
( ) Jeepers Creepers 2
(63) Catch Me If You Can
(64) The Others
(65) Freaky Friday
( ) Reign of Fire
(66) Cruel Intentions
(67) The Hot Chick
(68) Swimfan
( ) Miracle
( ) Old School
( )The Notebook
( ) K-Pax
(69) Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring
(70) Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
(71) Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King
( ) Walk to Remember
(72) Boogeyman
( ) Hitch
(73) The Fifth Element
( ) Star Wars Episode I The Phantom Menace
(74) Star Wars Episode II Attack of The Clones
( ) Star Wars Episode III Revenge of The Sith
( )Star Wars Episode IV A New Hope
(75) Star Wars Episode V The Empire Strikes Back
(76) Star Wars Episode VI Return of The Jedi
( ) Troop Beverly Hills
( ) Swimming with Sharks
( ) Air Force One
( ) For Richer or Poorer
( ) Trainspotting
(77) People Under the Stairs
( ) Blue Velvet
(78) Sound of Music
( ) Parent Trap 1
( ) Parent Trap 2
( ) The Burbs
(79) The Terminator
(80) The Terminator 2
( ) The Terminator 3
(81) Empire Records
(82) SLC Punk
( ) Meet Joe Black
(83) Nightmare Before Christmas
(84) The Silence of the Lambs
(85) Sleepy Hollow
( ) I Heart Huckabees
(86) The Wizard Of Oz
( ) 24 Hour Party People
( ) In & Out

Current mood: somewhat chipper.

Friday, December 16, 2005

12:50PM - www.rootstand.com

Rootstand. is. amazing.

i need one of there cds. im so glad i stumbled across them.

wow.

Current mood: happy

Thursday, October 20, 2005

2:25PM

i guess it's just one of those days. i got my essay and mid-term back today in english. got an a on both, but i don't feel real happy about it. the weather is just my style, but i just can't seem to get out there and enjoy it. everyone on the road pisses me off and i feel constantly on edge when i'm driving. there's a pulling feeling to the woods that grows in me everyday. i need to go out and shoot. sit and read. just think and let the wind whisper to me through the trees.

i'll write more later. maybe.

Current mood: melancholy

Sunday, August 28, 2005

1:33PM

on tuesday, August 30th 2005, my hair will be well on its way to becoming dreads. three wonderful people will be helping me with this process and i appreciate them greatly. i'm really excited but nervous. i've had hair like this for a quarter of my life. it's like getting a hair cut. and lord knows i don't do that. a change is welcomed but comes with apprehension. i think it will look good though, and that's why i'm doing it. there's a lot of maintenance and upkeep, but i'm up for it because i want this. i mean, i take so long to shower and everything that this will just add to it. haha.

anyways. i'm moving into becky's apt. soon. that'll be sweet. i practically live there anyways, but this'll make it easier and more fun for everyone.

soooooooo. bye bye for now.
pictures will be posted throughout the dreading process to keep an eye out.

Current mood: lazy

Navigate: (Previous 20 entries)